Mallika Sherwat, also known as the Murder girl shot to fame with that respective film opposite actor Emraan Hashmi in 2004.Â Her name soon became synonymous with everything bold on-screen. The actor feels her image became a point for people to judge her real life character with expectations that she would easily â€œcompromiseâ€ given the choice of films she did.
However, little did they know.
â€œI was thrown out of projects because heroes would say â€˜why canâ€™t you be intimate with me? You can do it on screen, whatâ€™s the problem in doing that with me in private?â€™ Iâ€™ve lost so many projects. Itâ€™s reflective of the society, what women deal with in our country,” she told an Indian news agency.
Being a head-strong woman in a society which is bound to pressurize you with their ideals, Mallika felt she couldnâ€™t compromise. She was initially scared to talk about it all thinking sheâ€™d bear the blame. Even though her stardom was on the rise at one point, but she constantly felt under pressure of being judged for her choices.
â€œWhen people judged me, it made me very insecure, overtly critical of myself and question everything I did,â€ she said.
â€œMy story, where I come from and what I battled, was overlooked, and it was all about how many kissing scenes I had. It made me insecure because I thought I had so much more to offer but highlighting only one aspect of mine, really made me suffer.â€
Despite all, the 41-year-old actor feels she could have done much better had she chosen conventional films over unconventional ones and if she â€œwasnâ€™t swimming against the tide.â€